Blood Traitor, Impostor... or Jew?

This post is a little more informal. If you had told me months ago that my world would turn completely upside down and I'd find out I wasn't who I thought I was all along... I'd likely say you're crazy... When you start on a Journey like " converting to Judaism a lot of things start changing in your life... whether you're aware of it or not. In some things you connect with your past, your past self, your true self... in others you disconnect from masks you've worn to yourself, things you no longer believe in... It's the same with family... and it is very, very hard. You will reconnect yourself with your ancestors sometimes, while becoming more and more estranged from other family members... at times you wonder who you really are anymore... One thing that has been very hard to deal with is the antisemitism and I'm not just talking about online antisemitism, in Real life things are ramping too. One of the hardest parts of the whole process has been people questionning my resolve, my honesty... and even my sanity... others will question my legitimacy to " become something I am not", " to become a Jew". Things have certainly become easier of late as I undug more about my family ancestry... and this has been the most exciting about my Journey ( published a while ago... but now being edited)